Today's Band practise, is probably my least enjoyed practice.
Look right into my face, expect any tear to be shed?
Ah, it did :(I was suppose to play this drumset part,
where it is
so hard to coordinate. I practised, & managed to play correctly @ home.
But when it was band practise, the
tempo got up, & so i messed up
a lil.Mr Ong stopped me, & asked me to play for him.
& so i did.
I failed to play what he wanted.I was under pressure. He give the
angry look, at asked me to
play over & over again.& everybody knows that
I CANNOT BE UNDER PRESSURE.Idk why, my father can work under pressure, & produce even better results.
I cannot, i just cant.
I played it over & over again.I just cannot. Then after a long while of waiting,
he told me to stop trying & asked if i've practised.
I answered firmly, "
Yes, i did."
He doubted, asked many questions.As each question goes on, i felt really lousy.
Really, really lousy.
I felt like, just screaming & ran home, which is probably more than 2.4km.
Soon, my eyes felt like i just
dripped eyedrops :(Then i bent down & wipe lor.
Thankfully, only
Ying Suean &
Aline saw man :(
Honestly, i thought that when ppl like Aline etc cries in band,
cause Mr Ong give them
too much pressure,
i thought it was rubbish.
like,
CRY FOR WHAT? But its unpredictable man.
Mr Ong then told Sabreena to drill me in my counting,
commented that i cannot count.
he said I lied about practising, he give me "THE EYE" look etc.
I maybe a nobody to say this, but i think he should not be so rude,
&
Descriminate ppl like that.
He doesn't know how ppl feel at all!
and at the end of the year, he apologises.
A 'sorry' is enough huh.
His comments are like :
-
Stop assuming, your improvisation is lousy.
- What? You want Jocelyn to play the snare? She can do it meh?
- Hrh, you're one hell of a arrogant kid man.
- etc etc ETC!
Ugh, i really is
NOT looking forward to the next practise.
Dont wanna cry :(
God, give me strength!
:'(
